Love and Other Stories

I did my first public poetry reading a couple weeks ago. It was simultaneously the most exciting, liberating and nerve-wracking thing I’ve ever done. I’ve spoken in public forums, hosted investor meetings with men twice my age without blinking an eye. Yet this, reading a poem in public to a room of strangers was the scariest thing I’ve ever […]


Perspective. It’s such a funny thing… I moved to Shanghai at 20, a sullen, depressed enigma. Threw myself into partying, threw myself into working, afraid of sleep. I used to go days on 2 hours of napping, afraid of crashing, afraid of the silence and the dreams. Oh, how things have changed in a few […]

13 Lessons from 2013 for 2014

January 2014 brings with it a daunting kind of freedom. Here’s a whole new year for you to fuck up or not fuck up (really, I’ve learnt, it’s a matter of perspective, oh, and actual actions.)Here are 13 lessons I’ve learnt from 2013 to try and help guide me through this coming year.  1. Family is […]

Musings: September brought a month of tears

The thing about melancholy is that it hits, and when it does, you’re powerless against it. Oh, you could pretend, but where does pretending get you? There are parts of me that I don’t understand, couldn’t even pretend to understand even if I wanted to. There’s a part of me that’s stuck in a past […]

why can’t we seem to keep it together?

The dreams come; carrying with them absolute and utter depression. In my dreams, I am alone. Stumbling wildly drunk. I remember long phone calls and private jokes and whispers inked into skin. Once upon a time, I was the happy shiny girl who had everything, but there is much to be said about material possessions […]

how to be the sort of person someone could love

i never saw you coming.and i’ll never be the same.but this life is waitingand i’m wild with longingthis is a real escapeand maybe this is fatei’m in a falling agefalling from my faithless stage i want to settle down into the pages of a book and disappear into the ink so that my life is […]

all the reasons to not fall in love, and the one reason to.

because he/she will break you.indelibly.they will leave their mark in the ugliest and nicest parts of your heart and shatter the million pieces of you into even tinier shards and they will smile as they do it, disappearing into the horizon you were both supposed to drive into together. because the fall will hurt. whether or […]

what life sometimes means.

sometimes you wake up with a smile on your face. sometimes, you don’t.  it doesn’t make you any less happy or any more depressed. it doesn’t make you anything. it’s like the stupid optimism litmus test. there is nothing philosophical about a glass being half full or half empty. there is just the simple matter […]

a hundred days of happiness: day 8 – red heels

the idea of time is an abstract concept. one that we’re constantly trying to write out, to understand, to grasp. but time is like smoke. after a while, it disappears, and you will never know where it goes. a few months ago, i don’t quite remember when anymore but it was still cold out, i […]