if you read me regularly, you’ll notice that i didn’t update yesterday. mostly because i had decided that Saturday was going to be a computer free day, and i spent it being lazy. the weather’s turned recently, and yesterday was sunny and a cool 23degrees celsius. in other words, my idea of perfect. a stolen remnant of a vancouver memory, and if i was the only one who saw similarities, meh. it made my day better!
i got to spend most of it with my mom, it was chill, and i’m so grateful for moments of absolute bliss that comes from doing nothing.
i’ve been non-stop, go-go-go! since i arrived in Shanghai, and it was amazing to just take a breather to appreciate the awesomeness of being able to savour moments. but, Saturday is over. and Sunday is here now, so rest is over, so i’m trying to dig down and find that happiness within to continue!
i’m happy for resolutions. for weekends. for dreams. for chill days. for sweaters and for scarves! i’m happy for endings that are sad, and for beginnings that are happy. mostly, i’m happy that we’re still talking, and even though you don’t need me anymore, even though i don’t know if i still need you, i’m just happy that you exist.
people always tell me that enough is an undefined term, but i know what is enough now. i am enough. i am happy because i am enough, and sometimes, happiness doesn’t need to have a reason. the days that start like this, the perfect days when i wake up with a smile on my face and an attitude that’s all sugar and sunshine are rare and few right now, but i can hope and this does end with hope because hope is the idea that it happens.
today, i am happy, and for now, that’s enough.